how much it bothers me

12.22am
i feel stressed as i am sitting here in front of my laptop. i am very bothered by smth but clearly i cannot pinpoint it to anything in particular.

this wk has been a busy one for me. during the 1st half of the wk i was very bothered by the dsta dinner. the having to cook curry, the last minute notification by what i would very rudely call inefficient ppl and their unwillingness to admit that they needed help. then came wed, the day for the dinner. i turned up, but i couldn't bring myself to be angry. as usual i ended up being busy with the serving of the food. what i don't understand abt myself is how much i hate to be doing this but yet always end up doing it. i begin to be reminded of how my mother would be busy everytime ppl comes over for food. she'll be busy in the kitchen and having to host them but she seem to enjoy it but at the end there will be some complains. i'm like that. i hate that. but i can't help myself. i like to cook, i like ppl to appreciate my food but i don't like it when ppl ask me to do it instead of me volunteering to do it.

thursday was a long day from 9am to 11pm. had lessons and lab till 5 after which i went with yipei, meihui and stacey to catch lion king the musical. i haven been so excited abt watching a musical. maybe its the way lionking reminds me of my childhood and the wanting to watch it since a long time ago. the show wasn't the greatest. singing and cast were average and so was the storyline as opposed to the movie but what shone through was the elaborate staging and props.
imagine ppl walking on stilts on all 4s acting as giraffes, human casting as animals. impressive, very impressive. and the cast walked down the aisle in the stall sits where i was seated and i could clearly see the women in white with wooden birds on their heads and hands. so graceful.

despite slping at 12 i had to wake up early at 7 to finish my math tutorial due today. went to the gym after lectures ended at 11 and i never felt so tired in a really long time. physical and mentally exhaustion. i dun feel relieved i feel as though there are many things catching up on me, but i don't know what. maybe its the CV that i want to finish. maybe its all the lecture readings that are piling up. maybe its the application for RD that is not yet done. but despite all that i had a fun evening at decentralised OCF today at albert's place. a filling dinner and discussion.

but now, i'm feeling bothered again.

Some random photos

my new drawer from muji. ex but still have to buy...









my tomato on vine (:
sweet!

the left and the right

there's an interesting thing that all left dominated brain ppl shld know. reading out loud what you are studying or just echoing your thoughts actually helps your thinking process. if you are left-brain, reading out loud and hearing what you said means your right brain gets to "hear" it too and that will help to reinforce that idea, or concept that you are studying.

so when i'm talking to myself, i'm not an idiot. i'm just a smartie whose brain is far too geared to the left. HAHAHA

K 歌之家

童话 by aaron, dongyu and ziling. really the k-box style sia. got lyrics with the colour one.
unfortunately i'm totally not interested in k-boxing. but it doesnt mean i wont be amused.
it was the day our internet came and everyone stopped studying for one night and came out to play...

surprise surprise.

was just reading the straitstimes. heres the interesting bit:

CIVIL SERVANTS ARE HAPPIER THAN WORKERS IN THE PRIVATE SERVICE.

unbelievable given the highly competitive, lower wage and more politics work environment.
i do believe this is so because civil servants are afraid they are being watched. LOL or if not they gain satisfaction in these days of economic turmoil given that they have a more steady job.

here comes the worst advice from the paper:
if you want to be happy at work, become a teacher or work in the service sector.

ask any of the MOE scholars. hahaha. NO one will agree. LOL.

Desperate... not us but the govt.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Prime%2BNews/Story/STIStory_443173.html

HAHAHAHA. SDU and SDS have combined to become SDN (social development network). long forgotten are the days that LKY insists that graduates shld marry graduates.

here's the even more interesting bit:

In another break from the past, the SDN will not be a members-only outfit.

Instead, it will be open to all resident singles aged 20 and above, regardless of educational level. They will not have to sign up to join the organisation or pay annual membership fees.

now we dun even have to join and we are automatically in SDN. the govt really need babies don't they? its a little freaky but i guess thats no harm for a small social circle person like me. but whether or not i will go is another qn. LOL

Boring life

Life in UK is getting more and more boring. i think the old wilson house gang is more fun than my current household. dongyu and ziling are just pure muggers who head for the room straight after dinner and start mugging. Oh my tian. i will then watch all sorts of drama till 10 plus and go to slp.

fortunately there are still a few things to do in VinE if not i will just die of boredom. will be going to southampton next sat and then for musical on monday.

i need work to do. life is simply too mundane and i can't bring myself to walk to oxford for shopping as oxford is now far unlike in the past. now i'm just waiting for the internet to come so i can finally shop online. (:

why is my life so boring?

my boring life

this one die die must watch. FUNNY! i haven learn how to upload videos. so just watch it via the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vBXWHDPDGk


into the 3rd day of sch. nothing really interesting except for the fact that the 1st wk is damn slack. lessons only in the morning from 9 to 12.

went to the gym ytd and i must say i was stunned. i walked into the changing room and it was commando style bathing. open style not even a draw curtain. and there are no inbetween stalls there is only a row of 6 shower heads. then i decide i shld walk home to bathe. pro ang-mohs who can just bathe like that. No comments.

i just bought tickets to watch lion-king and sister act! yay. thats 2 more musical to my collection of sound of music, les miserables and mouse trap.

my room is done (arguably)

finally after one week my room is done with everything in place except maybe for a few things that could be better but we shldnt complain right?

i have this difficulty in not talking loudly when i'm excited of agitated and the fact that my room is partitioned is not very helpful. i bet ziling hears every single word i say over the phone even when i hid under my blanket to try and hush myself up.

there are many things that i feel unsettled about even though technically i have nothing to do till lessons starts officially on monday. and i feel bored because i have nothing to do except to think and that makes me feel even more uneasy. its a vicious cycle.

maybe i shld go to the gym tmr. then i will have smth to do. and i cant find my camera so i'm unable to upload the many photos i haven taken from the airport all the way till the last time i saw my camera.